10/18/21

Behind the Scenes of A Boudoir Session

This might sound a little unexpected, but it’s the most honest way to start this:

I always thought I was going to be a therapist.

Not a photographer. Definitely not someone photographing women in their underwear. If you had told me back in 2001 that this would be my path, I probably would have laughed… and then gone right back to whatever plan I thought I had figured out at the time.

But life has a funny way of redirecting you.

How It All Started (Spoiler: I Had No Idea What I Was Doing)

My very first boudoir session wasn’t some grand, well-planned business decision. It was actually a wedding client who asked if I could take photos for her fiancé.

And my response?

Something along the lines of:
“I can try… but I can’t promise anything.”

Because truthfully—I had no idea what I was doing.

No posing system. No “signature style.” No roadmap.

Just a willingness to figure it out.

Fast forward 12 years (and four studios later), and that one uncertain “yes” turned into something so much bigger than photography.

What Happens When Women Walk Through the Door

Here’s what I’ve learned over the years:

Women don’t come in for just one reason.

They come in for their reason.

Some of the most common ones?

  • Moms trying to reconnect with themselves after giving everything to everyone else

  • Brides creating a deeply personal wedding gift

  • Women celebrating major fitness milestones

  • Anniversary surprises

  • Or sometimes… no occasion at all, just a quiet voice saying, “I think I’m ready for this.”

And while their reasons are all different, something incredible happens every single time.

The One Thing That’s Always the Same

They walk out different than they walked in.

Not dramatically. Not in some over-the-top, movie-montage kind of way.

But subtly, powerfully different.

  • Their shoulders sit a little higher

  • Their walk has a little more confidence

  • Their energy feels lighter

And more than anything…

There’s this quiet shift in how they see themselves.

That’s the part you can’t fake. And it’s the part that keeps me doing this.

“This Felt Like Therapy” (And Why That Comes Up So Often)

I’ve had so many women say, after their session:

“That felt better than therapy.”

And while I would never claim to replace therapy (let’s be clear), I do understand what they mean.

Because this experience isn’t just about photos.

It’s about:

  • Being seen without judgment

  • Letting go of self-criticism, even if just for a moment

  • Reconnecting with parts of yourself that may have been quiet for a while

It’s a space where you get to exist as you are—guided, supported, and reminded that you don’t need to “fix” anything to be worthy of feeling beautiful.

Let’s Talk About the Nerves (Because They’re Real)

If you’re thinking about doing a boudoir shoot and feel nervous… you’re in very good company.

Almost everyone feels that way.

And I mean everyone.

Even me.

That’s actually me in the photos to the right (yes, really), and I felt all the same things:

  • “What do I do with my hands?”

  • “Is this going to be awkward?”

  • “Am I going to look good?”

Those thoughts are normal.

They don’t mean you’re not ready—they just mean you’re stepping slightly outside your comfort zone.

And that’s usually where the magic happens.

What the Studio Experience Feels Like

Our studio is designed to feel less like a photoshoot… and more like a space you can settle into.

Located in Fairfield CA it includes:

  • A styled bedroom set

  • A private dressing area

  • Even a steamy outdoor shower setup

Every detail is intentional. Not to overwhelm you—but to give you options, variety, and a sense of ease.

You’re not rushed. You’re not expected to know what you’re doing.

You’re guided through everything—from posing to expression—so you can focus on just being present.

This Isn’t About Being a “Certain Type” of Woman

You don’t need to:

  • Hit a certain weight

  • Be a certain age

  • Know how to pose

  • Or feel “100% confident” walking in

That’s not the requirement.

The only real requirement is a willingness to show up—and even that can feel a little shaky at first.

Confidence doesn’t have to come before the session.

Most of the time… it shows up during.

Final Thought: You’re Allowed to Be Nervous—and Still Do It

If you take anything from this, let it be this:

You don’t have to feel fearless to walk through the door.

You just have to be a little curious about what’s possible on the other side of that fear.

Because what I’ve seen, over and over again, is that when women give themselves this experience…

They don’t just leave with photos.

They leave with a version of themselves they didn’t expect—but instantly recognize.

And that?
That’s the real behind-the-scenes.